Breaking my silence.

6th grade. I remember being nervous and scared of not having any friends in my sixth grade class. I remember there was the one girl in there that I slightly knew of and she was one of those really special people that you just find yourself gravitating towards to become great friends. I was awkward and pushy, but that never mattered. Through all of the unflattering videos and old pictures on facebook to the nights out looking at the stars, she was special, and VIVID. I felt like when I was with Itzel and a few of my other friends that I just learned so much. I was opened to so many new things and felt so nourished in their cultures and what they knew that I didn't. I felt so fully immersed and felt truly alive. Itzel is vivid. She is one of those people that can light up the entire room and leave everyone feeling a little bit happier than they would have been if they did not see her.
Finding out about something of this calibre over facebook posts from people whom I never knew has it's reasons for denial.  I was in 3rd period--radio class. I was sitting there listening to something along the lines of Lily Allen and I had found out and was in complete denial. I wandered the halls and found Wil oddly enough, but he didn't know and when I told him he was in denial.
I turned everything off, for most of the day. Then my phone died, but that's not surprising because my phone battery is essentially just an orange slice. Somehow all of us, all of us who hung out with each other back in late elementary and throughout middle school, found each other and we just had our emotional moment. I left and we took a trip to canyon. I brought two of my Navajo blankets and  laid them out on a sunny spot on the side of the road. I felt numb, I felt like somebody had taken my brain out and put it on the shelf. I didn't have more emotions to cry or purge and I felt exhausted. We sat in the sun and we kiki'd. We laughed and cried about memories and certain frustrations. I felt calm and I laid there with my eyes closed. We heard a distant, but loud crashing sound that sounded like thunder. We looked up and we saw that a large bit of snow melted on the top of the mountain on the other side of the small canyon road near Timp Cave and we saw and heard a waterfall crash down the mountain in the most profound and distinct way. I definitely don't doubt that this vivid and special girl had some sort of impact on this, only she could think of something so beautiful and symbolic to know that she was here with us in that moment.
We drove home with the sunroof down, in numb but higher spirits, Love On Top came on shuffle and some friends stuck their heads out the sunroof and windows and let their hair blow. I basked in this moment.
Itzel is a special girl, who's soul and spirit has constantly inspired and nurtured others. She has a contagious and happy glow about her and I can't help but smile when I would see her down the hallway with her bright smile and happy voice ready to greet those that she loved and cared about. Not many people can see the light and positive things in other people like she could. Itzel is so blessed, and I was so blessed to have the privilege to have somebody of that calibre involved in my life growing up. Itzel got me through a lot and the Other Side is very lucky to have claimed her back, she is an angel who's calling is now to return Home. As I reflect all I can say is that I was truly joyful to be acquainted with somebody as special as she was.

 

REST IN PEACE ITZEL

Habits

I think I have created a bit of habit.

My last post was on cycles and that was almost exactly a week ago. Odd. I have decided to create the new goal of writing a blog post about every Sunday. Today was the Oscars and it was such a long ceremony this time around, and I'm not really into movies so I didn't exactly thoroughly enjoy anything that didn't exactly and particularly and entirely have to do with Anne Hathaway or Meryl Streep or maybe Barbra. I am more of a Grammys/VMAs guy because all I do with my time is fangirl over blonde pop stars or cute little artists who I relate to and completely understand.

I recently proclaimed that I wanted to grow my hair out because I wanted to take advantage of my wavy textures and wanted to prove how fab it could look and that I would give myself corn rows (etc., etc.) but I don't know how I (or my parents) will ever get over that awkward length, so I guess to my dismay I have already scheduled my next hair appointment for sometime this week. The feeling is melancholy but it will be nice to have the control over my hair again.

One other thing that I am still fighting about in my mind is whether or not I should video blog again, have I become too boring to video blog? I don't know. I haven't decided. I will plan out another video soon, as well as my music video for the next song from Surreal - EP.

Like all blog posts I write, this one is just as scatterbrained as they all come, and it was wrote late at night. I'm going to sleep now I assume, so I will talk to you all soon.

much love,

tim

Cycles

I'm constantly going through cycles and as I look back on it I can't help but roll my eyes. Let me just talk about it from a week standpoint. I usually start out the week tired and lethargic but growing happy and positive. I get kind of corky and a little too glamorous by the end of the week, I get loud. By the time Sunday hits I become introspective and just all over gloomy to the point I just want to throw my phone away and climb into the foothills in some sort of realm where cell phone service is virtually unavailable for a time interval of about 3 hours. Maybe I'll figure it out, I don't know.

Interestingly enough, I was able to request my Twitter archive (gives you all of your tweets since the beginning) and I was absolutely distraught. I had no idea I was so tacky and whiney. Why didn't any of you warn me? I'm still looking for a way to delete all the tweets from 2009-late 2011, just because I want to completely leave those years behind me if that would be a possibility.

I can genuinely say that I feel like I am in a good place right now. I don't really feel awkward or ashamed of anything, and I'm absorbing and trying to take in every moment I get. The only thing I feel that there needs to be work to improve upon would be my social skills because it seems to get hard to spark a conversation with somebody whom has little to no interests in common with myself and I can go comfortably for a long time without saying anything.

Besides this, I am glowing with optimism and progressively looking towards any sort of fabulous light at the end of the tunnel and enjoying the ride as I go along. Perhaps I might try to get back into candid picture taking (getting somebody to get posed pictures of me). I'm going to start uploading these pictures onto Flickr and I made a Facebook album, as well as my musician's tumblr.

Speaking of the music life, I made my 4 song EP, which I am still supporting and the EP is supporting a future release which is definitely still in the zygote phase. I have about 3 songs finished outside of the EP and I continually working towards finishing up some demos but it's kind of on the backburner as it should be with all of this school at the moment. I am planning a video for a song from Surreal EP, it may be Silence or it might be The Most. I'm deciding and I am thinking of borrowing some old analogue VHS kind of cameras for the video, but I think just a good mint condition HD camera will probably do the trick as well. I'll keep you posted, in the meantime get into these links:

DOWNLOAD SURREAL: http://smarturl.it/TimisSurreal
soundcloud: http://soundcloud.com/timtincher
tumblr: http://timtincher.tumblr.com
twitter: PERSONAL http://twitter.com/timtincher MUSICIAN (less tweets) http://twitter.com/timtinmusic
instagram: http://instagram.com/timtincher

bye y'all

a bientot

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I have that four song EP that I've always dreamed of having. I hope you all enjoy it as much as I enjoyed making it. I had a colorful fresco and journey with these songs with lots of audible and visual inspirations and experiences behind them. The first single is called Expectations and I am at this very moment compiling and composing the music video for the song. Music videos are always a big and important part of the artistic experience for me, so it's always a huge priority to me to create music videos with candid and aesthetically pleasing visuals. Here below, you can find all the songs to SURREAL EP.

I miss this.

I miss this.
I miss writing.
I miss having something to talk about.
Perhaps there has been a new equivalent to outlet these sort of feelings.
I feel like so much has come out of this past time on this site and this blog; This probably isn't that important to you, but I've definitely shelled out a lot of who I am and a lot of the phases I went through and watched and documented them through here, I'd like to bring that back. There was once a time where everything visual and everything and all things seemed to make sense. I mean I'm not trying to imply that time is bad now, people tend to be so pessimistic but life is really just fine, it's just a lot more spontaneous (which definitely isn't a bad thing) and it's much more scatterbrained. It's more honest. I miss this and I think it would be a wise and perfect idea to some how retrace and find myself and explore in a visual sort of medium into an artform that at one time I enjoyed creating.

Lol. Remember when I used to post song lyrics on here. Sorry everyone that I don't post them anymore. I'm still working on music if you didn't think I was. It's kind of 80s tinged pop. It's great. I'm putting out a free EP with everything soon. But I'll talk to you all soon. xx