Finding out about something of this calibre over facebook posts from people whom I never knew has it's reasons for denial. I was in 3rd period--radio class. I was sitting there listening to something along the lines of Lily Allen and I had found out and was in complete denial. I wandered the halls and found Wil oddly enough, but he didn't know and when I told him he was in denial.
I turned everything off, for most of the day. Then my phone died, but that's not surprising because my phone battery is essentially just an orange slice. Somehow all of us, all of us who hung out with each other back in late elementary and throughout middle school, found each other and we just had our emotional moment. I left and we took a trip to canyon. I brought two of my Navajo blankets and laid them out on a sunny spot on the side of the road. I felt numb, I felt like somebody had taken my brain out and put it on the shelf. I didn't have more emotions to cry or purge and I felt exhausted. We sat in the sun and we kiki'd. We laughed and cried about memories and certain frustrations. I felt calm and I laid there with my eyes closed. We heard a distant, but loud crashing sound that sounded like thunder. We looked up and we saw that a large bit of snow melted on the top of the mountain on the other side of the small canyon road near Timp Cave and we saw and heard a waterfall crash down the mountain in the most profound and distinct way. I definitely don't doubt that this vivid and special girl had some sort of impact on this, only she could think of something so beautiful and symbolic to know that she was here with us in that moment.
We drove home with the sunroof down, in numb but higher spirits, Love On Top came on shuffle and some friends stuck their heads out the sunroof and windows and let their hair blow. I basked in this moment.
Itzel is a special girl, who's soul and spirit has constantly inspired and nurtured others. She has a contagious and happy glow about her and I can't help but smile when I would see her down the hallway with her bright smile and happy voice ready to greet those that she loved and cared about. Not many people can see the light and positive things in other people like she could. Itzel is so blessed, and I was so blessed to have the privilege to have somebody of that calibre involved in my life growing up. Itzel got me through a lot and the Other Side is very lucky to have claimed her back, she is an angel who's calling is now to return Home. As I reflect all I can say is that I was truly joyful to be acquainted with somebody as special as she was.
REST IN PEACE ITZEL